I used to hate yoga...

Yep, you heard me, i hated yoga.

Many many moons ago i heard the call and traveled solo to Nepal. This was my first solo tip overseas and it was amazing!

While in Nepal i stayed at Pokhara Buddhist Meditation Centre with other like minded people and took my first deep dive into yoga, meditation and Buddhism. This is where i learnt that i didn't like yoga, or at least that's what i thought i didn't like.... turns out it was ignorance, i didn't like my mind running wild with thoughts, its telling me this is too hard, too boring, I'm not good at it etc etc.

I very much enjoyed the Buddhist and mindfulness teachings on the schedule, but when it came to the yoga part, i dreaded it. In my head i 'knew' that i 'should' like it, that it was good for me... but i didn't understand the why. For me to truly get into something and implement it into my life, i need to know all the ins and outs of why I'm doing what I'm doing and how it works. I would look around and see everyone all relaxed and blissed out... and i was just plain frustrated.

Fast forward many years later and i finally got that information i didn't know i was looking for. Understanding that Asana is part of a bigger picture, that its only one fragment of a much larger healing modality and that its not about exercise or flexibility made all the difference. If i want to exercise, ill go to the gym, if i want to ground myself, reduce anxiety and clear some clutter in my head... it use asana in conjunction with Pranayama and Meditation specific to what i need.

This is what i want to share with you, this isn't about going to a group class and comparing yourself to everyone else in the room, doing a style of yoga that is counter active to my healing (yep, you can potentially be doing the wrong kind of yoga for what you need) and paying week after week and yet you feel no different mentally or spiritually. I want to work out what's best for you right now and what will bring about more balance and not exacerbate any negative issues you may be experiencing.